Self Sabotage

I emailed with an Internet friend I met through blogging a couple of days ago. The subject of "self sabotage" came up. I've been thinking about it off and on all week. Lawd knows I done it with men. I've also touched on self sabotaging when it comes to weight. I joke with my friends that I can lose/gain 10 lbs in a weekend. Last week I started the Yeast Connection Diet. The premise is to kill all the overgrowth of yeast in your body (all of it--not just the front butt kind). It is no sugar, no bread...it sucks. I stuck to it for several days and the muffin melted away before my eyes! My Pilates instructor noticed it. I actually felt better too. Then I ate pizza and drank a glass of wine. Once I did that the "fuck it's" kicked in and I started the next day with a coke and a biscuit. WTH? I saw that I could cut back on the bad stuff and that I had positive results, yet I went back to my wicked ways. 

When I googled "self sabotage" I got:

About 388,000 results (0.26 seconds) 

Lots of self sabotaging going on!

I think I will post this picture on my fridge:

Seriously, what kind of thoughts lead to things like:

• He's lied to me before, but I know he loves me.
• But one glass of coke won't make a difference.
• I'll do cardio tomorrow instead.
• But there's no good guys.
• I hate what I do, but I make good money...
• But I love bread!

I have a bag full o'buts. I know it is all about fear. If I took those same bullet points 

from above....

• He's lied to me before, but I know he loves me. 
• Fear of being alone.
• But one glass of coke won't make a difference. 
• Fear of not having anything to blame for being single.
• I'll do cardio tomorrow instead. 
• Ditto. Thinking thin=happy.
• But there's no good guys. 
• Fear of being hurt again.
• I hate what I do, but I make good money... 
• Fear of starting something new.
• But I love bread! 
• I really do love bread.