Sulie is back!

I am back!!  Penelope asked me the other day if I was going to write a sequel to my earlier blog..so here I am.  Thank you everyone for your well wishes.  I did get a job…in fact a better job than the last one.  More money, more responsibility, a chance to work with smart people and so far, there does not appear to massive, undiagnosed mental illness on board (I am sure it will come out later).  I am still in the honeymoon period.  I knew I was feeling better when I went back to my favorite thing to do when I am alone in my house…listening to my iPod while watching TV.  I dance around listening to my loud tunes.  It is my thing...it use to make my mom shake her head.  I look at it as a way to experience all the entertainment I can.

I have had setbacks…but that is to be expected.  The fools I used to work for filed an appeal for my unemployment.  What that meant is that I had to participate in a telephonic hearing where I had to listen to the HR Director and the CEO speak about why I should not get unemployment. Basically it was 10 minutes of hearing that I suck.  I had my chance to respond and I believe I did a good job.  I was professional, but let the referee know that those fools did not have a leg to stand on.  Whatever the outcome is, I know I stood up for myself and know that the boss was too much of a pussy to be on the call.  Rather telling, don’t you think? That little episode made me think back to my desire to make them pay.  Do I file a complaint with the EEOC because I was terminated for lesser offense than my boss did two years ago?  Do I respond to the financial review that had incorrect information?  Or do I listen to the advice of my good friend, Pop?  Pop is an older gentleman (father of Polly) and one of the greatest human beings I have ever met.  He tells it like it is and makes you feel like you are the most important person in the room when he is talking to you.  I asked Pop, ”What would you do?”.  He looked off at the distance and said “Sulie…don’t bother with them”.  He explained that would only continue the pain that I have experienced.  The exact same words of another of the greatest human beings I have met, L.  I still fight with it though.  I have this great desire for revenge.  I saw someone who I used to work with at the store the other day (someone I liked) and in the 15 minutes, I went from classy (I have a great job..they did me a huge favor) to trashy (I called the CEO evil..this person really respects the CEO).  Penelope did not think that was such a great idea…I know that too, but I did not care.  Is that so wrong?  I am human and what happened was shitty.  I know that this journey is still in progress and I have made tremendous advances, but I am still really mad.  I will get over it…